Perfectly lonely – Day 5

I felt so blank today.

I look forward to being constant again and climbing off this roller coaster. Its so up and down, I find it incredibly annoying. Maybe being constant is boring, but right now I could do with boring. I go from happy to sad at the drop of a pin. So bipolar.

At home having a glass of wine and sitting on my floor and writing and and listening to music. I don’t know what it is about me and floors – but I always find myself sitting on the floor. I feel so content right now. In my room/house, with my delicious wine, in my incredible pyjamas that have stars on them *** and listening to music. In my own company. It could be the wine and it could also be the Lindt chocolates I ate for dinner, maybe the sugar rush has kicked in. There is however one thing missing – GOOD WIFI!

I have realised that I am actually perfectly lonely and I enjoy nights like these were its just me and my music and my thoughts. I actually look forward to them and I have actually turned down invites just so I can have relaxed chilled evenings.

Work was good, it was busy and exciting and a tad stressful. The girl that worked in our store has left so my boss and I will be picking up the pieces of the store – this happens at least two to three times a year, its absolutely ridiculous, no one in the fashion industry seems to be able to keep a retail job for longer than 6 months.

I bought this fantastic hat today!

Hmmm I might have to get some more wine.