So I blocked my husbands email address last night because he just was being an irritant to what was a lovely day. We chatted on the phone. He said we found closure. Then he emailed my therapist? I find it extremely psycho of him to email my therapist. He wants to help me heal. Thank you but that is not your concern anymore. When I told him I relapsed into my eating disorder and he said he couldn’t believe I dumped my problems on him? Now we are divorced and he wants to help me and do everything in his power to help me heal. Oh just shut up.
He sent an email saying that I mustn’t run after a man just to fill the void inside me because I will never find true love. That my soul has died but he believes that I will find her again. That he would rather be alone than be with someone to fill the void inside him. Ok thank you. You are now blocked because you are so fucking boring. You used to go into the trash and that is just too much admin so you now wont be coming into any mail box.
So now onto things that actually matter 🙂 I am going home to my parents tomorrow and I cannot wait! It is going to be so lovely to them and to be home with them. I cant believe it but I haven’t been home in 4 months already, time flies. I cant wait to go on long walks on the farm and see my brother and drink good wine and sleep – yes I am looking forward to sleeping soundly most of the weekend. When ever I am with my parents I am so calm and relaxed that I spend most of my time sleeping.
Work was so weird today – I was so tired and I had such a headache and I had so much admin to do and I was just feeling all round moody. Binged a bit when I got home on half a jar of nutella – didn’t purge!! Then had a lovely evening with my aunt and uncle and some family and early night! Home tomorrow!
