Woke up at 5:30am and went to meet my friend Andrew to have orange juice and champagne and then we wen to ‘the secret sunrise party’. It was epic. Literally a bunch of people in the early morning wearing headphones doing yoga and dancing and drinking organic freshly squeezed juice. It was incredible, the best way to start the morning!
Then I got my divorce summons and scanned all the documents and sent them to my lawyer – so got the ball rolling!
My husband emailed me this morning a whole bunch of things. Receiving the summons made me feel a little guilty – once again because I actually am doing really well with the divorce and he is struggling so much. I know I shouldn’t feel guilty because I suffered and was depressed for 8 months and I really struggled during our marriage that I now actually feel relieved that its all over…sitting here now I feel that I don’t need to feel guilt or pain anymore. It doesn’t serve me at all. I feel that its over and I have moved on and thats ok.
I am feeling so content at the moment.
I really feel so at peace – like I can move on. Like the struggle is over and things are looking up again and I am finding myself again.
I paint my nails now and I wear lipstick almost every day – this may not seem like a big deal, but its a huge deal. My husband used to get so upset when I would do these things because he said I was looking for attention.
I feel so very free today.