Today was better.
I went to work, ate a tub of brownies, a chocolate and a pack of mini doughnuts and a chocolate milkshake.
I didn’t purge.
I didn’t hate myself.
I shrugged it off and I carried on working.
I went to his house in the afternoon and we had some friends over and we drank wine and we sat in the jacuzzi. I wore a bikini the same day that a massive binge occurred and I just sat there and chatted and he held me and thats all I felt, I felt his strong arms and I was seeing stars and it all didn’t matter. I even ate dinner and after dinner we shared ice cream.
I binged and I did not restrict.
I forgave myself and I kept nourishing my body.