I’m going to sit in a cafe and do therapy all day – Day 22

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I took the day off again…still not feeling amazing.

I started doing a work book today called ‘Healing the scars of emotional abuse’ by Gregory Jantz, and it is such a good book, it is so spot on!

I think a lot of the emotional abuse that happened in my marriage was shrugged off because I never thought it was serious enough and I always made excuses for it and I always justified it. This book points out all the different forms of emotional abuse and all the types of emotionally abusers. It really shows that the simplest things, words that didn’t seem like they were such a big deal actually were, how when you were made to feel guilty all the time it was incredibly abusive – as I now have such serious issues with guilt. The way my husband didn’t even trust me to open a cellphone account on my own because he didn’t think I was capable – he literally thought I was too stupid – thats emotionally abusive as he put me down, he didn’t trust or believe in my ability to perform a small task without him, all because he wanted me all to himself.

My parents and friends were all a threat, because they were capable of taking the attention away from him. I could only be his basically. He was threatened by anyone else that would ever get close to me…

Anyhow!

He is back from New York and is exhausted so we had a quick dinner and having an early night. I am happy he is back, I am sad he is leaving in April.

Author: gettingmyheartbrokengenerally

If you asked what I do in my spare time I'd answer... Getting my heart broken generally. Running a business, navigating into my 30's with incredible family and friends. Where I am now, 4 years after divorce, travel and relationships.

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