So I have been going to therapy every two weeks for the past month and today is my last day for the year. My psychologist is closing her practice the week of the 1st December, which is the week I am away – So today was my last day!
Therapy was good, she is so proud of me for working so hard this year. For overcoming so many obstacles and for facing everything head on and for being so strong. She thinks I am in such a good space, it’s only the eating and handling the anxiety that I need to keep working on day by day.
So I haven’t been speaking to him much, he called Monday but I was already sleeping lol. Tuesday night we chatted a bit in the morning and then I said good night and he only replied once I was sleeping (it’s like I’m always sleeping). This morning i texted morning and we chatted a bit. Basically I’m playing hard to get, which goes against everything I stand for because I because I am an advocate of honesty – I however am going to try this out and see it through and see the results.
I will admit that I am enjoying all the time I have again and not feeling the anxiety of whether he is going to call or not and not feeling panicked because I like him so much. Now I’m chilled, what ever happens will happen. It is fun but its not as exciting as feeling like a 16 year old girl thats about to be asked to prom.