I wake up next to him and its magic, we make breakfast and we laugh.
Something washed over me. I feel anxious and scared, shaking non stop, my jaw is tingling and it’s as if my blood vessels are even scared.
Binge on swiss roll and ice cream.
I go home and I sleep for about an hour. Cold shower. I go to sleep again tiredness that never ends with sleep.
Binge on ice cream and chocolate mousse.
No purging.
Sleep again.
Binge on McDonalds.
Sleep.
Spoke to my mum. I feel I have no direction. I feel numb and I feel hollow.
Write.
Sleep…
I think relationships
are a huge trigger for me.
