I don’t know if it’s because I am leaving for two months or because this is natural. All the feelings with Andrew have magnified and we becoming vulnerable around each other.
I repacked my backpack four times this afternoon. Every time I finished I picked it up and it was still too heavy to carry, not too heavy but not particularly comfortable.
I’m stuck in a pickle because I seem to have too many pairs of shoes. Running shoes are a must as they comfortable and they have my inner soles in so they support my feet and can walk many miles. My boots go everywhere with me, leather indigo, they filthy, I’ve polished them once in the past 4 years. They represent me, they are me, if I was a material object, I would most likely be these indigo leather lace up boots. The boots are coming. One pair of flip flops – backpackers equals communal bathrooms and my best friend has urged me to pack flip flops ‘you don’t want to get warts from those disgusting showers, pack your flip flops!’ So no argument there. This is where the problem comes in. I want to take my Nikes, life is not complete without a good pair of Nikes. My black rouche runs, I love them! Hopefully I would have sorted this out by the time I leave.
Two pairs of jeans, tracksuit pants, one dress, two pairs of shorts, 5 shirts, a jersey and my jacket. Socks and underwear and a massive bar of soap – a lot of washing will be done these next two month. Washing by hands – believe it or not, I’m quite psyched about this. I don’t know why but I am. I have packed an insane amount of wet wipes, my mom gave me a bunch ‘they always useful, and zip lock bags, you always need zip lock bags.’
I have packed minimal toiletries as they just too heavy. I’m going to use the sample shampoo and conditioner and soap that I get at the hotels. Yes, Danielle is not going to use incredibly overpriced salon shampoo, it’s ludicrous! It’s happening, I don’t have space or strength to carry hair products, coconut oil, soap and all those luxuries.
I’m off to dinner with Andrew and then spending the night 😉