I want to recover.
I want to be free and healthy. I want to eat mindfully, I want to fuel my body and I want to love my body. I want food to be fuel and not an enemy and not a friend. I want my body to be my friend and not my enemy.
My incredibly strong body that has climbed mountains and carried kilograms of weight on its back. My body that has been able to travel, run, make love, give hugs and kisses. I want to love that body and stop abusing it.
Ten years and ED is a part of me, Its an illness that I identify with. I’m scared to be without ED, we have been together for so incredibly long. Recovery is losing a part of me.
But I have to do this.