So today is my first shift and it’s the day shift. My new boss and the staff here at the hostel are incredibly anal and ocd. Like oh my god. I thought I had obsessive compulsive issues but this is a whole new league.
Everything needs to be done in a certain order, you cannot show a guest the kitchen before showing them the wifi password. Like it’s just not done. It’s like a cardinal sin if you mess up the order.
The people are really lovely and nice but they speak in monotone and I feel like a firecracker because I somewhat speak a lot and I get excited over everything. So I feel like I need to tone down my personality every 5 seconds.
Anyway because of this, people are watching me constantly. So I feel like I have to be perfect so my anxiety levels are through the roof.
So b/p four times today. Every time I was left alone, bulimia and I hung out big time!
So this evening I am going to bed early as I have a pounding headache and I am as bloated as fuck.
And surprise – I still feel uncomfortable and anxious about this place.
