I wonder if I will spend less money on clothes and make up and hair and so on when I get home? Or will I slip back into my old ways? Because honestly I have already planned what I am going back to wear to dinner with A the first night I am back home haha
So I have learned that I can live with little luxury, eat peanut butter sandwiches and oats everyday and never drink nice wine. I can wash my hair once every two weeks and not use a hair dryer and I don’t need make up. I don’t need so much clothing and I don’t need to paint my nails.
I want to though.
I actually want to and I actually like it. But I guess I have learned that I don’t need it.
I have learned to accept myself the way I am.
It’s a constant struggle every day. Trying to love what I see the mirror. Not covering up any flaws with make up, not wearing clothing that hides my body or that makes me look prettier. Not doing my hair. Just being me. Completely untouched.