I just feel as if A is the only constant I have and the only place I feel safe right now.
With all the uncertainty with my new job and starting the business. I feel unstructured and under pressure. So I’m being a clingy little girl that wants to be with her boyfriend all the time.
Insecurities have just washed over me these past two weeks and all of a sudden things that seemed like a dream seem like a struggle. All of a sudden I have so much fear and anxiety while I sit here crying. Crying for my ex husband and the life I would have had. Crying because I fear losing A and what I fear even more than that is, the fact that I am so attached to him now. Fearing the business venture, fearing failure and even success. Fearing it all.