Went to therapy today and my psychologist pointed out the following:

A year ago I actually started therapy, with a 6 month gap recently. And in the span of one year I somehow managed to:

Leave a chaotic marriage and get a divorce

Leave my home and move into a new one, uprooting all my comforts

Resign from my job

Travel through a foreign country alone

Start a business

Try to recover from an eating disorder during all this chaos

I discussed with her that perhaps I don’t want to recover, its been 10 years that I have been in and out of the constant struggle that is this eating disorder.

She said its because it serves a purpose. It’s there for me and it has a function, its comforting and its a distraction. Until I learn to to feel my anxiety, the disorder will be there. She says I have become really negative, I’m fearful and she could sense my anxiety. She said I couldn’t really expect myself to make a full recovery with so much going on in my life.

Now I need to take things slow… Be gentle with myself and give myself time…

Author: gettingmyheartbrokengenerally

If you asked what I do in my spare time I'd answer... Getting my heart broken generally. Running a business, navigating into my 30's with incredible family and friends. Where I am now, 4 years after divorce, travel and relationships.

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