I think I would have died by accident – Day 17

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Yesterday I was feeling ill and I felt the flu coming on but today it has hit me like a ton of bricks!

I felt so sick, shaking and my body sore and the highest temperature imaginable that I even started crying and then A decided that was it. And we decided to come home. We were only meant to leave tomorrow. But I felt so ill and he wasn’t feeling great so we came home and went to sleep at 6pm.

And A took such great care of me, running me a bath and making me tea and sandwiches. I love him so much

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the best – Day 16

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Shrooms

Are you waving or are you cresting? I did mushrooms for the first time ever on Friday night all the way through to Saturday morning and it was incredible!Like seriously on of the most fun nights of my life. I did them with A and a bunch of his friends and it was fabulous.

Love

What was the best though was lying in the tent with A chatting for four hours because we couldn’t sleep. We spoke about so many things – our childhoods, our dreams, our relationship.

And we just lay chatting and kissing and making out like teenagers – it was so special. Being in his arms and just chatting and kissing passionately.

Daily donuts – Day 14

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Today, for the first time n a long time I felt like binging and purging.

So I had two donuts for breakfast and then restricted the rest of the day and had another donut on my way home.

Now I’m waiting for one of my best friends to come over for wine because she needed to chat and I think I need to chat too. Spend some time with a friend and have some girl time.

The cause of the urges is due to quite a few things

I have lost weight recently and I’m loving it and this causes a bit of anxiety – because instead of just continuing to eat healthy and exercise – I get anxious and I freak out and I obsess –  I’m trying so hard to not slip into old ways but today it go the better of me.

Work is very stressful – things are going well, but money is tight and the voices are loud.

I’m going away for a week with my parents and A is going away with his friends for a weekend – I don’t know why this makes me anxious but it does?

So I’m eating donuts daily…

Running strong – Day 13

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We’ve been doing really well with our running, A and I, today we did a 7km and we actually managed quite well 🙂

Then made delicious pasta for dinner and I concentrated on every morsel that entered my mouth and tried not to be freaked out by all the cream.

The days turn into weeks and the weeks turn into months and the months turn into years – Day 12

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Time is going so quickly.

A year ago I moved into my own apartment, I was seeing someone and then I met A.

So much has happened this year but at the same time it is absolutely horrifying how quickly the year has flown by.

How quickly life has flown by.