Self harm among adults – Day 24

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TRIGGER WARNING!

I randomly thought about cutting today.  For the first time in months the thought self harming. There was no trigger and there was no urge, it was just a thought and it was an attractive thought.

The thing is that I’m 26 years old and cutting seems childish? Its as if society has labeled cutting as a form of self harm that is associated with teenagers, but its definitely a form of self harm that is favoured among adults as well.

The last time I cut was in March when I was in Israel and I was going through such a rough time. I cut myself twice on my left thigh and I’m still bearing the scars and I’ll admit that I do feel slightly self conscious about them.

But yesterday I thought about cutting myself on that same left thigh. I though about the way the blade would slash thin lines across my skin and it would sting the blood would slowly start to appear, in the form of little droplets along the cut lines.

I am sad to admit, but it seems so appealing.

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