Well its 11am and my model was meant to come see me at 1pm.
She just cancelled.
And I mean cancelled today and cancelled for the shoot tomorrow.
Its exactly 22hours until the shoot and I still have to hem 2 pairs of pants, 3 dresses and put buttons on 2 dresses and then steam all the clothes. And also find a new model – Fantastic.
But guess what. My previous model from my last shoot is available thank god. And I’m going to use her again. She is perfect, reliable and enthusiastic and I know my clothing fits her incredibly well. It would be child’s play to search for a new model at such a late stage and just pray that she is good and fits into my clothes.
In all honestly – perhaps this was a blessing.
This is my life until the shoot is over on Saturday.
I’ll admit it – its tough but I am loving it.
Blogging has been taking a back seat.
Resort collection has consumed me and I am designing and sewing in my sleep even.
That awkward moment when you wake up at 3am and sketch a dress quickly…
Starting my sister in laws wedding dress today and then going home the weekend for the first fitting of the mockup dress 🙂
I’ve decided to do a resort collection.
Excited and feeling inspired.
Financially work is going well and I have some extra money that I want to pump into another collection for two reasons. Firstly because I feel clients are becoming less because the previous collection is now old news lol. Secondly, I need to design and create or I start to feel as if I am stagnating.
Designed the uniforms, did the measuring 🙂 time to make money YAY.
I launched my collection today!
It was the scariest moment ever. Its so hard to put yourself out there creatively. All the criticism that you’ll receive on work that is so close to your soul. It was as if I was baring my soul to everyone when I launch it – I had so many mixed emotions.
Excited of course but horrified.
The fear I felt was unreal and the uncertainty was debilitating. I kept thinking to myself that I was being ridiculous. The voices in my head kept saying ‘your’e not good enough’ and ‘no one will like your clothes’ and things like ‘you’re not even talented, who do you think you are to even call yourself a designer and embark on this journey’.
‘You’re not good enough’
The voices just kept going and I didn’t even stop them and I didn’t fight them. I merely listened to them and said ‘I hear you, but I’m going to do it anyway’. And I did 🙂 and the response has been amazing!
If you wanna check it out – check my Facebook page for the collection:
Its been a year since I’ve been living alone and the separation and so on.
Only now am I starting to feel like myself again.
I feel as if I have completely moved on and let go of the past. I’m starting to fall in love with myself again and respect and nurture myself.
And I’m focusing on my career and my dreams again.
It’s all coming together.
Today was my shoot for my Spring/Summer Collection.
It was awesome and now I am so exhausted, from all the emotions – because Danielle cant do anything without it turning into a roller coaster of emotions. Also because the shoot took 5 hours!
The model was so lovely and the photographer too – they absolutely loved my clothes which was amazing because I judge myself so harshly that I often stop to think about the actual designs and the work – I just think about the fact that its my work and I already see a thousand flaws. But seeing the clothes today with them, and viewing everything through fresh eyes made me feel a bit proud of it all.
My mom also came to the city, 500km’s away to help with my shoot and support me which was so incredibly special 🙂 she brought wine and we all made a toast.
Such a special day.
Tomorrow is my photo shoot and I’m really excited but really nervous!