Binge/Purge – Day 7

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Something happened a long time ago…

Something that made me feel that I deserved to be punished. When I do something wrong I deserve to be punished. When I start feeling happy I need to be punished because I don’t deserve it. I just won’t allow it. Something in me just won’t allow me to be happy.

Today was so stressful, I made a mistake at work and I just crumbled. And now I feel so much better after purging. So so so much better…