Happy Birthday to the past – Day 14

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Its my ex husbands birthday today and I didn’t say Happy Birthday.

Last year I did, and he said I sent him into a dark depression just by hearing my voice. So this years I completely avoided contact at all costs.

I hope he had a fabulous day however!

 

Happy Birthday 25daysofdivorce – Day 25

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My blog turns 1 year old today 🙂

I cannot believe this blog has been going for a year already and I cant believe everything thats happened.

How much I have grown and how much the blog has grown.

In the past year:

Got divorced,

Moved into my own flat,

Quit my job,

Started dating,

Recovery for eating disorder – still doing this,

Backpacked through Israel solo,

Started a relationship with the most wonderful man,

Started a business

Blogged every day for a year

And probably a whole lot more 😉

I’m so proud and grateful to every single follower and reader, Thanks so much for all your love and support 🙂

Birthday surprise – Day 4

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Happy birthday beautiful girl!

It’s my best friends birthday today and her boyfriend flew me down to surprise her, it was magical, she had no idea I was coming! We spent the day at wine farms drinking and eating and laughing and talking absolute rubbish and then discussing the most serious aspects of life.

It was perfect

Happy Birthday you evil bitch – Day 3

EDNOS turns 10 years old this year.

Since the tender age of 16 we have been friends.

We had our breaks from each other. For years at a time we were only in contact once in a while. But our friendship never ended. We will always be there for each other in times of need.

 

Lets go binge and purge on your birthday cake…

4 years old – Day 21

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We had a birthday party for my nephew 🙂

I’ll never forget the day that kid was born. I remember what I was wearing and I remember the smells of the hospital. The shock horror on my sisters face when she looked at her new born baby. He was so tiny it was frightening, everyone was too scared to even hold him, my mom had to bath him. My brother in laws eyes as big as saucers. I can’t remember when last we were all so overwhelmed.

Fast forward four years later and there isn’t much that brings me more joy than seeing his smile and hearing his laugh.

I baked him a spiderman cake and he wanted to help me decorate it – he then decided it was way more fun decorating my face with chocolate icing.

 

Birthday girl – Day 15

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26 years old today and I had three pieces of cake. Am I happy with myself? Not really and I obviously thought of purging and now I’ve had my last slice before. Red velvet, cream cheese icing melting in my tongue – pure bliss.

I didn’t imagine I would be here when I was 26, and I’m not imagining where I will be when I am 36, life doesn’t give into your imagination.

My ex husband didn’t wish me happy birthday.

My mom and dad shed a tear today and told me how incredibly proud they are. They are proud of how I dealt with this year, the person I have become.

I’m not 100% happy with myself right now, but I will say that I am content. My weight is the highest it has been in a while and my clothes are tight and wearing a bikini makes me cringe but I wear it and I wear a brave face and I accept that this is me right now. This is where I have to be right now.

I’m growing, I’m not where I want to be, but I am getting there and I will be found.

I’m not alone and I’ll never be.

Happy 34th Birthday snuggle buggle – Day 24 part 2

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Today is my EX husbands birthday (yes I can officially say ex-husband).

I called him, we had a lovely chat, the connection is still there, the friendship is still there. I feel very happy and content about this.

The divorce was the most traumatic experience of his life, he suffered, he was depressed. He knows I struggled – but he struggled more. It’s fine. Do what you have to, feel and say what you have to.

I feel content that we are here and we can keep our friendship.