Now this is a really big deal…
My ex husband was convinced that I couldn’t keep anything alive. So I became convinced that I was unable to keep a plant alive. I would always buy pot plants and they would always die – I mean always. And my garden was also always dying.
Clearly this was all due to a bad energy.
Because now I somehow managed to have a new flower bloom on my orchid.
I just want to say in is arms forever.
Out there I feel as if i am drowning but when I’m in your arms my heart is flooded with calm.
Every so often I still stop and think about how lucky I am.
How something so simple has turned into something so magical.
‘I thought you just wanted to be friends’
‘I did, I really did, this wasn’t the plan’ I said
‘I’m glad it turned out this way’ he said and kissed me on the cheek.
‘Me too’ I smiled, ‘me too’.
Another one of my best friends who we visited today is pregnant 🙂
We extending our family and my I couldn’t be happier. We looked at her ultrasound and my heart skipped a beat.
It is as if my soul is smile.
I will admit that being with her and her husband today did tug on my heart strings a little. She got married 6 months after I did and we always spoke about being pregnant together. It did bring back memories of all the hopes and dreams I had of having a family and a life with my ex husband. When I open the kitchen cupboards I find myself wishing that I had a home with kitchen cupboards instead of my tiny space I have. I wish I had a guest room and a living room and a room to share with the one I love.
I get lost in you.
When I wake up in the complete darkness and somehow throughout the night our bodies intertwined and you are holding me so closely and tightly, it is as if we have been folded into each other.
Ending the chapter with you is my favorite way…