I think I would have died by accident – Day 17


Yesterday I was feeling ill and I felt the flu coming on but today it has hit me like a ton of bricks!

I felt so sick, shaking and my body sore and the highest temperature imaginable that I even started crying and then A decided that was it. And we decided to come home. We were only meant to leave tomorrow. But I felt so ill and he wasn’t feeling great so we came home and went to sleep at 6pm.

And A took such great care of me, running me a bath and making me tea and sandwiches. I love him so much


OOPS – Day 15


First of all, my boss paid the rest of my salary today! She didn’t even mention that I wasn’t at work yesterday or anything about my raise. So YAY now I have money.


Last night we went to the school function and then Andrew and I decided to have dinner and then we went for a lovely walk and made out and landed up in our underwear in the park! I wont lie, I had a lovely time, we had so much fun just chatting and hanging out. Kissing him felt amazing, we walked around a labyrinth and sat on the park bench chatting and kissing. There was a full moon and there were cold grey clouds hiding the stars.

I lifted my arms and he took my dress off slowly. We kissed and stopped every so often and looked into each others eyes, his beautiful soft brown eyes. He isn’t particularly sensual and he isn’t particularly good with his hands either, but it was ok. It was nice, it was nice being with him and kissing him and looking into his eyes. It’s nice how he doesn’t care about my past or about what I am going through, he doesn’t mind the confusion. He understands and gets that I’m in a confusing space, he knows about everything and we open about it.

I want to see him again.

There’s just something about us. We aren’t the same, we from two different worlds. I’m slightly crazy, philosophical and anxious. He is cool, calm and in control and tries to live in the moment. I take life too seriously and he assures me that its just a journey we on and its ok to be selfish. I have to be selfish.

I want to kiss him.