Race Day – Day 13

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5km – This is the first time we have ever ran 5km straight with absolutely no walking and going strong. Feeling good, we can do this, easy, peasy.

8km – Water point, awesome, can’t believe we’re still running! I feel like my stomach is going to start running but it must just be the nerves? After 8km’s I’m still nervous and scared?

12km – Bathroom break! Ok it wasn’t nerves, last night lasagna is not agreeing with this running business. I literally have two squares of toilet paper, the poor person after me lol. A thinks its perfectly acceptable to do some walking now seeing that we have run 12km’s straight.

15km – Ok seriously, we’ve been running uphill for the last 3km’s. And my calves are hurting now and its clearly time to walk again and have two little cups of coke at this water point.

18km – Seriously! Whats with the uphill. We’re walking, fuck this shit, there is no way I’m running any further.

19km – No! I’m still walking.

20km – They must be lying, this is clearly 21km’s by now. Please kill me.

20.5km – ‘Come on bunz, its just 500metres, letes run and finish strong’ A says to me. ‘NO, I don’t care, I’m walking’

21km – Its literally 100metres to the finish and we run into the stadium and the crowds cheer. A’s mom and dad shout our names and finally I feel some relief.

21.1km – Got the medal. A and I shared a big kiss and a big hug and the started bitching and moaning about how much our legs and feet hurt lol

Where did the week go – Day 12

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Where did the week go and where did the past 3 months go?

Tomorrow is the race and we have hardly trained. Honestly we haven’t even run 5km’s straight once. The last 3 months were meant to be filled with training and races on the weekend – but we hardly did this and we are so unprepared…

Wish us luck!

Daily donuts – Day 14

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Today, for the first time n a long time I felt like binging and purging.

So I had two donuts for breakfast and then restricted the rest of the day and had another donut on my way home.

Now I’m waiting for one of my best friends to come over for wine because she needed to chat and I think I need to chat too. Spend some time with a friend and have some girl time.

The cause of the urges is due to quite a few things

I have lost weight recently and I’m loving it and this causes a bit of anxiety – because instead of just continuing to eat healthy and exercise – I get anxious and I freak out and I obsess –  I’m trying so hard to not slip into old ways but today it go the better of me.

Work is very stressful – things are going well, but money is tight and the voices are loud.

I’m going away for a week with my parents and A is going away with his friends for a weekend – I don’t know why this makes me anxious but it does?

So I’m eating donuts daily…

Running strong – Day 13

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We’ve been doing really well with our running, A and I, today we did a 7km and we actually managed quite well 🙂

Then made delicious pasta for dinner and I concentrated on every morsel that entered my mouth and tried not to be freaked out by all the cream.