Happy Divorcaversary – 4 December

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Its exactly a year to the day that my divorce decree was granted in the courts and all was finalized.

I was standing on a mountain in Mossel Bay with N and we kissed and he said ‘Here’s to no longer living in adultery’ and we laughed and hugged.

Then it was over.

Just like that – a judge signs the papers and 3.5 years is dissolved – just like that.

New sister YAY – Day 250

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My brother proposed to his girlfriend on their holiday in Australia.

So happy and so excited for them 🙂 my heart is smiling.

How magnifeicent is the ring 🙂 Its a family heirloom, it was my grans 🙂

By the way – we’ve made it to day 250! I can’t believe it. So much has happened in the past 250days, I cannot even begin to comprehend the adventures and growth that I have experienced. And its so perfect that today I move into my studio to start my business and my next venture.

It’s a craft that no one gets – Day 3

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The wedding is driving me insane…

It is so much work and I don’t feel as if my friend is appreciating it at all. She doesn’t get it. She doesn’t understand the craft and the art that clothing is. It’s incredibly frustrating.

I cannot wait to get away for the weekend.

This is the saddest vanilla that I’ve ever tasted – Day 14

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My heart is here freezing, as my tears fill my bowl and I’m finally tasting alone. Sat at an ice cream parlour and you broke my heart, now I’m tasting the saddest vanilla.

You’re such a swamp, but you’re all I want.

I miss him.

I feel scared and anxious for the future. Trying to be peace at where I am at this moment. Be free in the learning and be free here and now in this moment. I have no direction and I have no where I’m heading and I guess I am lost. But I am me and that is enough for now.

I will be found and I’m not faking it anymore. I don’t know what or who or when or how. I don’t know what I want from this life. And thats ok for now.

I’m ok.

There’s a bright white beautiful heaven hanging over me.